I am realizing how often the words “I wish” form in my brain, take hold of my thoughts, and hijack my day.
I should count the number of sentences each day that start with “I wish.” I should count the times I begin a thought with, “if only” or “if I could just…”
Oh those wishes, what-ifs, and if-I-only-coulds. They invade my thoughts, steal my joy, and draw my focus to a life that is not yet to be. And may not be in the future.
All of the wishes, all of the what-if, and all of the if-I-only-coulds will never make the things that I want actually come to be.
I still hope. I still pray. I still plan and dream and imagine the possibility of a brighter future. But I am getting rid of the wishes that cloud my days. I am getting rid of the wishes that make me want things that I don’t have instead of enjoying what is there.
And so today, instead of wishing for a coffee date at Starbucks, I am going to make this delicious done-in-under-five-minutes homemade frappucino.
Today, instead of wishing for the pain to magically go away, I am going to read a book that distracts me and makes me happy.
Instead of thinking where my life and career might be if my life had gone another way, I am going to write this little blog post and see where this little online venture might lead me.