Many of you who follow my blog know that I am a counselor and that I have been working towards clinical licensure for quite some time. It has been a long, long process made so much harder by chronic pain. And it’s hard to believe that after so many long years, this process is about to come to an end.
Out of the 3000 hours of counseling I am required to log to meet the requirements for licensure, I have only 18 left. Just 18! I can’t even believe it. Ever since the beginning of January, I have been counting down the hours, one by one. And now I’m almost there.
I honestly have no idea how I will feel the day I finish. Will I be in shock? Elated? Will I cry? Will it feel just like any other day? I don’t know.
It feels both huge and anticlimactic at the same time. I’ve been working towards this for so long that it is hard to imagine life without this goal looming in my future. Once I finish, what will life be like? What will I work towards then? Will life feel different or the same?
Reaching this goal feels so, so much bigger to me than it would if chronic pain hadn’t colored the whole process. Every single step to get to this place was a fight. It took me seven years to make it here, when on average it takes most people about four years. There was a long period of time in the middle of those seven years when I was only able to work 2-3 hours a week. During that time, I wasn’t sure I would finish before the deadline. Even now, I am holding my breath, hoping that nothing happens in these last few weeks to derail everything.
And I’m still processing it all. I am sure I will have more to say once my final hours are completed. Once I send in the application, and hopefully, receive confirmation that everything was accepted.
This summer I will have a chance to breathe. Well, that and take care of all those things I have been neglecting…doctor’s appointments, PT, a hair cut, dentist appointments, etc… All those things that got pushed to the side when there were more important things to worry about.
For so long I have put almost my whole self, every last drop of my energy, towards work. What will it be like to not do that anymore? I am so looking forward to having a more balanced life.
My greatest hope is that my body will have a chance to do some recovering when it’s not pushed to work as much. But even if not, just any sort of break will be nice.
I know I have been a little bit absent on the blog and not kept up with the schedule I set for myself to post every Tuesday. Basically, I decided that blog schedules are not for me. But, over this summer, I anticipate being around a little more. Likely I will be writing a few more posts and also sharing a few projects I am working on.
All of you who read my blog – I think of you often. I really do. This blog and the people I met through it have played a huge part in helping me reach my goals. Just knowing about others in similar or worse situations than my own who still move forward day after day has given me courage to keep going. I don’t know how I would have made it if I hadn’t met so many others walking this same road as me. Thank you to each and every one of you!