Counting Down to the New Year is a series of 12 posts in which I reflect on 2015 and prepare for 2016.
Today I am exhausted and worn out. Last night I slept 13 hours and woke up still feeling depleted. Tired. Thinking slowly. Unmotivated.
Even writing this post, I’m struggling to find words. My thoughts are lagging, my brain feels fuzzy, and I keep losing words and thoughts.
Today I am achy and wondering how work will go this evening. I have to work three hours this evening and four hours tomorrow afternoon, and I rarely work two days in a row like that. It is going to take a toll on my body, and I am trying to save up every last spoon to make it through.
And then I see that today I am supposed to write 11 things that I am thankful for. It is the next post on the list. I’d much rather put it off. I’d much rather skip to the next topic. Not because there aren’t things to be thankful for, but because I’m too tired and achy don’t want to do the work of recognizing the good.
But I guess that is part of the point, that it takes work to recognize the good in the midst of the hard. Yesterday I finished reading One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp. In general I had mixed feelings about the book. I didn’t agree with everything that she said, and there were small portions of the book that I found quite troubling. But, there is no denying that the main thrust of the book – giving thanks, seeing God’s gifts and his grace in things big and small – is something I can hold on to.
I won’t bore you with a thousand things I am thankful for, but here are eleven.
Starting a new job at the end of December. I plan to share more details about this later, but in a nutshell, things perfectly fell into place for starting a new job. Such a huge gift.
A hot steaming cup of black coffee. Does this even need an explanation?
My soft, fuzzy electric blanket. Oh how I love to be warm. It cancels out the chill of falling asleep on an ice pack and I just burrow my head in its soft and comfortable fluffiness.
Anticipating a restful and stress free Christmas. We won’t be traveling for the holidays or seeing family, but the perk will be no stress and not anxiety.
White chili simmering in the crockpot. So delicious and so easy. And I won’t need to make dinner for the next two days.
Netflix and free online shows. I’ve been watching Broadchurch, Quantico, Friends (for the millionth time), and Big Bang Theory.
Free library ebooks. This is a new thing for me this year, and I can’t believe I didn’t know about it before. I get free library books right to my ipad. It’s wonderful.
Online support and encouragement. I’m so thankful for each of my online readers and friends. You make my days better.
Grocery delivery. I should have done this a long time ago. Only 4$ to get groceries delivered directly to our apartment, and one less huge task to do every week or so.
Glide. I use glide – a live video messages app – every day to talk to my sisters and friends. It is the perfect way for me to stay in touch with people and feel connected when I am stuck at home.
Sunshine. Today the sunshine is coming in through the glass doors and hitting me just right on the couch. It’s wonderful to have sunny days when it has been so rainy and dreary lately.
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