God must have a sense of humor because the day after I wrote my last post questioning whether I am disabled or not, I received a jury duty summons in the mail. Ironic because I definitely feel too disabled to participate in jury duty for so many reasons.
While only a few days ago I was resisting being labeled “disabled,” I suddenly find myself desperately wanting my doctor to see me as disabled so she will sign a medical release form to save me from jury duty. Oh how quickly things change.
When I received the form in the mail, I immediately called my doctor, and providentially, she had an opening next Wednesday. It typically takes at least a month to schedule an appointment, so I am thankful for this opening. For some reason, I am feeling really nervous and unsure whether she will be willing to sign my form.
There are so many reasons jury duty will not work for me. Parking will be several blocks away, and just walking from my car to the building will take up all my walking for the day. I am currently unable to sit up all day long. Depending on the day, I start lying down anywhere between 12 noon and 6PM. After that time I will get up periodically to finish dinner and do various tasks, but it is important for me to be able to lie down off and on. Possibly I could handle one day of jury duty, but after that I would be completely done. Should I be selected for more days, I would be in big trouble. It would inevitably push me too far, completely over the edge, and I would fall into a huge crash. That type of setback would take me months to come back from.
That being said, a lot is resting on my doctor’s signature. She is my primary care physician, and I have only seen her one time, about a year ago when I switched from a doctor I was unhappy with. Since then, my only doctor’s appointments have been specialists and physical therapy. The one appointment I did have with her went really well, so I am feeling hopeful she will believe that I am unable to do this. But the fear is still there.
The form she will need to sign claims that the court is willing to make all sorts of accommodations for individuals with disabilities. For individuals who have trouble walking, they accommodate you by placing you in a room closer to the court proceedings. Unspecified accommodations are made for individuals who have trouble sitting and standing for long periods of time. I am at a loss for what sort of accommodations could possibly in place for this. Unless they have a bed for me to lie on and will allow me to interrupt court to lie on my ice, I am pretty sure no accommodation is going to cut it for me.
Hopefully my doctor will agree.